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Wednesday, May 07, 2008 ♥18:25
i remember those times.
where i used to sit at the balcony of my house.
looking out.
at all that is moving around me.
and i feel like im on top of the world.
(maybe because i lived on th 12th floor =X)
then i'll close my eyes and enjoy the breeze that
hit my face.
then when i open my eyes.
i look out again.
reflecting on what i have done that day.
what i should have done what i shouldn't.
at times i'll laugh to myself.
at times i cry.
at times i get so mad that i'll look down.
and think of ending my life there.
then i look further.
passed the buildings and carparks.
i look at the skies.
and suddenly i have the desire to fly.
to fly to a foreign land.
where i can have a getaway from this life.
and have fun alone.
or with the person i love.
i changed my mind to end it there.
because there is a whole stretch of horizon
for me to explore out there.
then when i get back to my room.
i get my diary and start to write.
and i remember.
at every page i write.
i will have quotes that i made myself.
quotes that i created after what i experience that day.
i remember one.

"i am a girl with many dreams and fantasies
but will it ever come true?
because again.
they're just dreams."

i just miss spending time with
SYARIFAH AZRINATUL NURULHANNA.♥

i think alot nowadays.
whenever im left alone.
and when i close my eyes.
when my friends are laughing their hearts out.
but i sat there listening.
but my mind just flies away.
i just think when i have the opportunity to do so.
think as in not those kind of thinking.
but reflecting and dreaming.
and thinking.
what have i done to have make me come this far.
regrets?
set backs?
happiness?
sorrows?
i realise
i have faced many set backs in my life.
sorrow always grip my soul tight and dont want to let me go.
i have shed loads of tears.
and no one knows.
everytime i cry.
i will just find reasons why i am crying.
i'll only stop when i have no other reasons.
after that.
i feel like im a completely new person.
like another strong soul have replaced my other.
this setbacks and stuff
made me into a really strong person.
but at times i hate this 'strong person' in me.
because all that it does is to hide my weaknesses.
is it?
idk.
at times i cant even differentiate between secrets and truth.
at times i dont even know whether im okeh or not.
what's up with me nowadays.
i feel so quiet.
but i still smile.
i still laugh.
what's bringing me down?
i have no idea.
im clueless
im confuse.

come to think of it.
you arent there when i need you th most.
where are you?
i miss you.

do you understand whaaaaaat in the world am i talking about?
i dont think so. :D

OH.
im such a super good girl,NOT!
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    syarifah azrinatul nurulhanna
    28 October,nineteen
    i love baking and guitar. i have an awkward fashionsense and a confusing musicalgenre.♥
    DIPLOMA in PASTRY and BAKING.
    i believe in miracles and big dreams come true.
    people cant help themselves but put me down,
    but i will still stay on my ground.

    "i believe that everything happens for a reason
    people change so you can learn to let go,
    things go wrong so you could appreciate them
    when they're right
    you believe lies so you eventually learn to
    trust no one but yourself,
    and sometimes good things fall apart,
    so better things can fall together"
    ;Marilyn Monroe
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